Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Water from the moon
My mind is racing. A thousand thoughts running around. Bumping into each other at 100 km/h. There's no resolution in sight and my nerves are a jumbled mess. There's so much I want to say...need to say. How do I find the right words. How do I make you see what I see. I can feel it falling apart. I can taste it on my every tear. My fear is bitter in my throat. It's reducing me to what I never wanted to become. I am frightened. I am alone. I am angry. I am holding it in and I'm ready to burst.
My sadness brims at the surface, every moment of every day. But I hold it in. I smile. I laugh. I pretend my heart isn't about to break wide open. It will drown them. It will drown me. I don't want to let go. Hold on.

Mandy
xo


Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 7:14 p.m..



Tuesday, January 09, 2007

A Brand New Year
Christmas was lovely, as it always is. Terrence was home from Edmonton and it was really nice to see him and to get to spend some time with him. Chris and Lynette were out a few times and we had a full house for Christmas supper. Pop (Gus) was here as well. B and I spent as much time together as we could considering his work schedule, and I had Christmas dinner at his house and we exchanged presents. I enjoyed Christmas very much this year. And, as is always the case, the holidays were over much too quickly.

New Year's Eve was an interesting one. B and I went to a house party which happened to be next door to the Shortall's. It was hosted by Chris (Jesus, LOL), a guy B went to high school with and pretty much everyone that was there were B's high school people. Pamela was there as well, which was good for me cuz I knew nobody! I happened to be wearing a very low cut shirt and I had a jean jacket on over it but once we got drinking I got very warm (of course!) and Pam kept telling me to take off my jacket, lol, and I didn't really want to because of the shirt but I finally had to give in. There was a guy there, Jason, and he'd been looking at me and chatting with me a nice bit and once the jacket came off I thought his eyes would bug out!! LOL! Pam was sitting beside me and every few minutes she would say "he's looking again" LOL Oh my! Good times. They had a few fireworks at 12. B spent the night here with me. It was a great night indeed.

Now I'm back to work again and this cough I've had for about 4 weeks is still lingering. I think B and I are going to Carbonear on Saturday to see the movie Deja Vu. It looks like a pretty good movie. Maybe we'll get Andrew and Jenna to play cards or something. That always proves to be a good laugh.

Take care everybody. Bye bye for now.

*well it's not the time to breakdown/it's not the time to breakdown/it's not the time to break up this love/keep it together now/it's not the time to break*

Mandy
xo


Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 11:24 p.m..