My mind is racing. A thousand thoughts running around. Bumping into each other at 100 km/h. There's no resolution in sight and my nerves are a jumbled mess. There's so much I want to say...need to say. How do I find the right words. How do I make you see what I see. I can feel it falling apart. I can taste it on my every tear. My fear is bitter in my throat. It's reducing me to what I never wanted to become. I am frightened. I am alone. I am angry. I am holding it in and I'm ready to burst.
My sadness brims at the surface, every moment of every day. But I hold it in. I smile. I laugh. I pretend my heart isn't about to break wide open. It will drown them. It will drown me. I don't want to let go. Hold on.

Mandy
xo

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