The past several weeks have been very upsetting for me. Things in my life have been changing and I wasn't exactly prepared for them. B and I broke up, and though things were probably over a month ago, it was official only as of two weeks ago. I haven't told anyone really, mostly because I get upset when I talk about it so I figured I'd write it here so I don't have to say the words 'broke up' over and over.

I'm slowly becoming accustomed to the idea of being single again, but let me tell you, it sucks. Valentine's Day is tomorrow and I know it's going to crush me...but I'll make it through. I'm happy for all of you who have someone to love and spend the day with but secretly, I'm going to be hating you all just a little for tomorrow only. (haha)

Thank god for Pamela. She has been spending a lot of time with me online and in person over the past few weeks and I don't know what I'd have done without her. She is definitely the best distraction for sadness that I can think of. She's a really good friend. *I love you lot's sweets*

And, I've been going out on weekends...meeting new people and hanging out with new friends. I got a new haircut today as well! It was in the middle of my back and now it's just on my shoulders with messy layers. I like it a lot! I feel like a new person. A change is just what I needed right now. Maybe the new me won't be as sad as the old me.....

*tell me, are you really happy?/or did you simply throw our life away/just to be unhappy?/...and i tried to make you happy/but i believe you thrive on misery*

Mandy
xo

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